Today my mom left.
I'm feeling really down right now, i can't really explain. I just want to be left alone.
I miss my little sister and my mom
my odie and my best friends. my room, my bed, my street.
the town that i've known forever.
Yeah, i've got to move on.
I'm just sad, and lost and alone.
And extremely overwhelmed.
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Mackenzie-
- AskMack
- Silverlake, California, United States
- Questions: askmack.girltalk@yahoo.com
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Im sorry about your mother, i don't really know the situation though. sorry.
i have you on my myspace and i was wondering if you could help me! I live with my boyfriend, his best friend, and his best friends girlfriend. our 2 roomates are weird and gross and trash everything. he keeps saying that he will do something about it but the way i see it, he never will. they have all been friends for MANY years and we've only been together about a year. when i mived in they already lived here 2 years. How can i explain to my bofriend, without hearing him say that its too bad or having him comapre me to them and see us as equal, that i can't stand them and it makes me miserable to be in this house!?
:[ being in a new place is hard, and i'm sorry. but i hope it gets better for you!
but anyways, i have a question.
so, i was dating this boy for about two years. things were great the first few months like in every relationship, but then after that he started getting emotionally abusive with me. he made me believe that i was basically the scum of the earth. he would always ask me to change myself. he'd order me to lose weight, or he wasn't going to be happy. (i'm only 104 pounds and i'm 5'4!) he'd order me to not talk to my friends, he'd order me to not do the things i wanted to do. we would fight EVERY DAY and i would cry EVERY DAY. We'd break up every week, but i was stupid and i thought that i would do it to make him happy. but it was never good enough, no matter what i did. so he broke up with me a few weeks ago, and i cried that night. after that, i was the happiest i've ever been in my life. i'm not in denial or anything, i've accepted the fact that we're over and i'm happy about it. is that wrong?
i'm not angry, or sad about us being over. i'm angry and sad over what he made me feel. i hate him so much for what he did to me.
now, i have this thing with a perfect boy. he is so nice, and he is everything i deserve. i'm just afraid to be hurt so badly again, and i'm afraid to take the chance.
what should i do?
I'm in that horrible relationship right now. It's like I'm on a sick ride I can't get off. I can never find the strength to let go. Half because at work when im on the phone for 8 hours I can't help but want to text him. and because I've given up everything for him so hes all I have. And even when I text or hang out with other people...I'm not satisfied. It freaking sucks. HELPPPP
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